Sunday, August 23, 2009

Miracles

Eight months ago when I was diagnosed with Macular Degeneration I had a hard time accepting the fact that I couldn't see. My eyes bugged me all the time. The world looked "cockeyed". I was kind of dizzy all the time and I became quite depressed. My sweet husband, who is always optimistic about everything, tried to encourage me, but nothing seemed to make me feel better. I asked him for a Priesthood blessing and in that blessing he told me that a miracle would occur in my behalf. I was comforted but still discouraged.

I decided that I needed to find out all that I could about this crazy disease so I sent for several books from Amazon dot com and began my education about Macular Degeneration. I learned that you will not become completely blind---you just won't be able to see. The central vision is destroyed---the peripheral vision is still there. There are two forms of the disease--the dry (or slow progressing) form and the wet form that progresses rapidly as tiny blood vessels in the retina leak and cause permanent damage to the macula.

I was diagnosed with the dry form and the specialist told me to come back in a year. I was not comfortable with that so I went back to see my regular Opthomologist. I could tell that there were changes happening in that eye. The distortion was changing. The wavy lines were different than they had been. Dr. Alder, my regular Opthomologist examined my eyes again and immediately made another appointment with the specialist. Dr. Alder indicated that there is probably something that the Retina specialist could do.
After taking a scan of my eyes, Dr. Kwun, showed me on the picture of my eye, that there were pockets of fluid indicating that the macular degeneration had indeed changed from the dry form to the wet, or more rapidly progressing form of the disease. The good news is however, that there is something that can be done to treat the wet form. He explained that he would be giving me an injection of medicine directly into the eye. There would be a series of three injections, given at intervals of 6 weeks apart.
I have now had the series of injections and there has been a marked improvement in my vision. My right eye has gone from 20/250 to 20/100. Before the third injection, the doctor did another scan and it showed that the pocket of fluid has almost disappeared. He feels that I will perhaps need another injection in another 6 weeks. I will always have a spot in my central vision that is dark, blurry and distorted, but the peripheral vision has improved greatly.
So when Joe promised me in that Priesthood blessing that a miracle would occur in my behalf, I have seen several miracles and I'm sure will continue to see more as I exercise faith.
The first miracle is that I was prompted to go back to Dr. Alder when I had concerns about changes in the eye. If I had waited for a whole year to go back to the specialist, the damage would have been extensive and permanent.
Second, that the drug that is injected into my eye works. It is a drug that has been successful in treating uterine cancer. It is amazing that someone figured out that it would help macular degeneration.
Third, that the body has two eyes and that the brain can be programed to see out of just one eye and yet use the vision that is left in the periphery of the diseased eye.
I am so grateful for the Priesthood and the blessings of the gospel in my life. I know that I will always have vision problems. My left eye has the beginnings of the disease, but I know that as I understand my limitations, and follow the advise of the doctors and know what I need to do to preserve the vision that I do have I can continue to have a productive life. I just need to remember to take my vitamins, eat lots of fruits and vegetables, stay out of the bright sunlight, avoid eye strain and limit my driving at night.
In the meantime, if you want to know about Macular Degeneration, I have some good books that you are welcome to borrow.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Focus on the Abundance!

In his October 5, 2008 conference talk President Monson quoted a well-known author: "Both abundance and lack of abundance exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend....when we choose not to focus on what is missing from our lives but are grateful for the abundance that's present---love, health, family, friends, work, the joys of nature, and personal pursuits that bring us happiness--the wasteland of illusion falls away and we experience heaven on earth."

I have learned during the past month to be grateful for the abundance that's present and choose not to focus on what is missing!

Louise picked up our book from the printer and was delighted at its appearance. She called me and said that it is "gorgeous". I was so happy that it was finished and that it turned out so well.
Then I received a second call from her and she informed me that page 197 was missing from the book....there was simply one page that was blank. The dialogue was not there...page 196 and 198 were there but not page 197.
I was sick as I wrote an e-mail to the technical support at Memory Press and explained the situation and that we would hope that they could print page 197 and we would glue it in place. My contact at memory press said that she was sorry and that the PDF file that I had approved was also missing page 197 and so it is virtually my fault. She also stated that they would not be able to print again until after the second week in January. I typed the dialogue and we inserted it in the blank page. We will replace those pages when it is reprinted on the matching paper and print.
There were also typo's that we were sure we had corrected that were in the book so all in all, we have a gorgeous book that is not perfect!
The last week before printing was frantic as there seemed to be problems with the software program in Memory Press, but my contact person worked so hard to correct them and we felt that all was well. Too bad it wasn't!
I was assured by many that the spirit of the biography is still there and the story is intact, and the expressions of love and appreciation by children and grandchildren are priceless and so we have chosen to focus on the abundance that is present and choose not to focus on what is missing!
I have learned much from this experience!

During the final weeks before Christmas my eyes began bothering me, especially after working for long periods of time at the computer. I noticed some blurring in my right eye and after checking my vision on a chart that my eye doctor had given me because I had been diagnosed with the beginnings of macular degeneration, I recognized that the lines on the chart were wavy and distorted. At church, when I closed my left eye, the faces of the people on the stand were distorted and blurry so Monday morning I called my Dr. and he sent me to a retina specialist and we discovered that indeed the macular degeneration in my right eye is getting worse. It seems that all that can be done is to take mega doses of "eye vitamins" and come back next year for further evaluation.
WOW!! once again I am learning to be grateful for the abundance that's present!
How amazing is the human body. We have two eyes and somehow the body compensates for what is missing. I hope that there will be some way that a new prescription in my glasses in the right lens will be able to help the distortion some...but I don't know.
In the meantime I'm so grateful for the vision I do have and there will be some way that I can prepare for the time when I lose the vision in both eyes. I wonder if there is such a thing as "Blind School" where I can go to learn braille. Our daughter in law has offered to train a service dog for me and in the meantime I'll be looking for good books on tape.

We are so blessed to have a living prophet to guide us in all the concerns and problems that we have and help us to be happy and live abundant lives!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

It's Finished!

Our parents' history book is finally finished!
It took many hours and much cooperation
from members of our extended family.
I'm sure our parents will be pleased as we read
about their lives, their testimonies and desires for their posterity.
I have felt so close to them as I've worked on the book.
It is truly a miracle through the use of computers
and the internet that we can publish a book from our home.
We look forward to seeing the finished product in a couple of weeks.
Thanks to everyone for your contributions!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Aloha`oe...Until We Meet Again

Max and Sarah Olsen
Married February 22, 1927
I have recently been busy compiling the history of my parents to be published in a book. With the help of my brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews we have come up with a wonderful history of their lives and the influence these two humble people have had on the world. Mother wrote her own history up to a point and my sister Louise recorded dad's history on a tape recorder in response to questions. We have their missionary journals, their Patriarichal blessings as well as written memories from their children and grandchildren. We have titled the book "Aloha`oe....Until we meet again" because they met in the mission field in Hawaii in 1924.
We hope to have the book ready for publication for Christmas.
Max and Sarah Olsen
1959
Max and Sarah Olsen
February 22, 1977
We have a great heritage and we're excited to share their story.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

A Reunion full of Surprises!


Our reunion at Bear Lake couldn't have been better. Julie and Ray and Andy and Julie were in charge this year and they left no stone unturned to make it special in every way. Joe and I were kept in the dark as the plans progressed. We didn't have to do anything except be there. It was great! On Sunday we attended Sacrament meeting in the Paris ward. We increased their numbers by about 45 extra bodies. After Sacrament meeting we met at the Paris cemetery to visit the graves of Grandpa and Grandma Andrew Barfuss. This is the same cemetery where Grandpa Joe and his brothers helped their dad mow the lawn and care for the cemetery.


Brady and Grandma are having a reading lesson together.


The "family feud" game on Saturday evening gave everyone a chance to get to know each other better. The Barfuss' are such competetors!!!! It was pretty wild!


The planning for this reunion was as much a part of the reunion as the reunion itself. The committee went all out in bringing everyone together to put together special tributes for Grandpa and me. The above picture shows every one of our grandchildren and great grandchildren with a message of love for us. Nick, our missionary in Switzerland is also there. What an amazing age we live in with the technology to have pictures and messages from around the world! We have this special picture hanging in our living room!


A wonderful scrapbook was put together for Grandpa with each of the kids, their spouses, grandkids, and greatgrandkids each telling of a favorite memory of Grandpa, what they learned from Grandpa and why they love grandpa. This was presented on Saturday night.



Sunday night was reserved for a "special family home evening". The room was set up for a dignified evening with everyone sitting quietly and then a video was presented of my life with tributes given by each of my brothers and sisters as well as from each member of the Barfuss family. It lasted about an hour and a half and everyone, even the little ones were quiet as they watched themselves and their cousins tell about their experiences with Grandma Sally. I was overwhelmed to say the least. I felt that I had just attended my own funeral! Ray Beck will need to add "Movie Producer" to his resume`. It was so professionally done!

I am so blessed to have so many wonderful people to love and who love me. I am still basking in the love that I felt that night. Thank you, Thank you!

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Robert and Emmy's Wedding!

Wow, what a party! The Bairds all gathered to celebrate Robert and Emmy's marriage. What a wonderful posterity. Louise made dresses for all the "Pink Angels". I think all of Provo came to wish them well. The kids especially enjoyed the dessert refreshments, including ice cream, sugar cookies, chocolate milk, mini cup cakes, cream puffs, cheese cake, fresh fruit, and tons of candy of every sort. I'll bet there were more than a few tummy aches that night.


It was especially fun to become better acquainted with Louise's darling grandchildren. Her quiver is full!
They were eager to have their pictures taken.


What a sweetheart!

A great send off for Robert and Emmy!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Our Patriotic Duty!

Our new refrigerator....a gift from President Bush!


I don't have to stand on my head to find something in the fridge.


The freezer compartment is in a drawer on the bottom of the refrigerator.

We have always had two refrigerators. A 30 plus year old one in the garage, that just kept running and running (kind of like the Energizer Bunny), and a Whirlpool in the kitchen with the freezer on top and the fresh food compartment on the bottom. I have had to practically stand on my head to find anything in the fresh food compartment!

When I first saw a refrigerator with the freezer in a drawer on the bottom I knew that someday I would like to have one. But, with the Barfuss philosophy being "wear something out before we replace it" I would probably never get my wish.

And then President Bush decided to send us all a bonus just for being good citizens so I decided that it was my patriotic duty to buy that new refrigerator and help the economy get back on it's feet. So now we have a new fridge! We not only got it free from the government, but we will get a $65.00 rebate for the delivery, a $20.00 rebate from the power company for buying an energy efficient refrigerator, and $30.00 from the power company for letting them come and pick up the old garage refrigerator for recycling! WOW! What a deal!